The Impossible Kid is Aesop Rock’s seventh solo album but for me it was my first exposure to someone who is quickly becoming one of my favourite artists. The album was released in 2016 by Ian Bavitz (Aesop) at the age of 40 and his experience really bleeds into the sound and lyrics of the album creating something that I found really special. Some of the sounds on this album are like nothing I’ve ever heard and I was really taken back by just how creative this whole album is while make sure it gets the basics so, so right.
Pretty much every song on the album has its own personality and this gotten across through an excellent balance of compelling narratives and strange, dreamlike metaphors that work together to create some really interesting themes which are maintained through the whole album. I could go on and on about almost every song here (and I probably will at some point) but right now I want to talk about a pair of songs on the album that I think together give a really strong impression of Aesop’s music and what you can expect from this album. The two songs I want to talk about are Rings and Lotta Years.
Rings, really sets the mood for the whole album. It’s an insight into Aesop’s past as an aspiring visual artist and considers not only what could have been but also the importance of art in his life.
“It was soothin’, movin’ his arm in a fusion
Of man-mad tools and a muse from beyond
Even if it went beautifully wrong
It was tangible truth for a youth who refused to belong”
Aesop Rock, Rings
This part of the first verse really shows just how well Aesop can draw together his lyrical skills with inventive imagery while all the time reinforcing the themes at the core of the song. In this short section, Aesop is able to give us a really beautifully concise impression of his feelings towards his art as not only a relaxing activity but one which meant a lot to him as a kid no matter what the outcome of it was. It was the process of creating it which was really important to him, not the result. However, this positive feeling is always in doubt from the very beginning of the song with the very first lyrics referring to how he “used to draw”. This idea is explored further in the first verse with this short section:
“I left some years a deer in the light
I left some will to spirit away
I let my fears materialize
I let my skills deteriorate”
Aesop Rock, Rings
Here Aesop is reflecting on how his connection with art faded over time. It’s an honest outlook on why he stopped drawing and painting and he attributes this to fear. He never really says clearly what exactly it was that he was afraid of but in a 2016 interview with Julian Brimmers he admits that he “just kinda lost touch with it [art] as [his] life unfolded.” While I think the easy assumption to make would be that Aesop was afraid of failing or that his art would never get his anywhere I’m not so sure. In the same interview he says that creating art was something that he “loved to do regardless of whether or not I was good” and that all the work that he put into it was “based on nothing but a love for trying and doing.” I think the real reason lies in a later verse:
“Eating up his innards, an unfeasible anxiety,
Has brutally committed to relinquishing his privacy
Aligning with the trails of the anti-Midas
Nap on the back lawn, look up in the sky, its…”
Aesop Rock, Rings
This part of the verse is delivered more quickly than the rest of the song and the drum track drops out making it really stand out by building some tension and energy. The way that the drums come back in right at the end releases this brilliantly as the chorus drops in creating a really nice structure for the song. Aesop recognises that the reason why he stopped creating as much art was because of everything else that was happening in his life and that his passions fell away when he was suffering from anxiety and doubt about his own identity. It can be difficult to pursue the things you love when you’re not entirely sure who you are and why you do the things you do and I think that this song really encapsulates this sentiment. The concept of considering yourself as an “anti-Midas”, that is having everything you touch become worthless, is clever, memorable and relatable and I can see how, when you adopt that way of thinking, you may give up on something so important to you. I think that this idea is portrayed by the chorus:
“Shapes falling out of the fringe
All heart, though we would’ve made cowardly kings,
They will chop you down just to count your rings”
Aesop Rock, Rings
The very first line of the chorus creates a very strong impression and for me personally it created an image of drawings falling off the side of a canvas, piece of paper or sketchbook; building on the theme of Aesop’s time as a visual artist. I not only find this visually striking, I also find that it works very well as a metaphor. When the art is stripped away all that is left is a blank space devoid of identity. This could either represent how Aesop felt, that his visual art only acted to hide the fact that he didn’t really know who he was or that once he abandoned it he felt bare and that he had lost something important to him. The chorus follows on with this slightly abstract tone but what I think Aesop is really trying to get at is that in his youth he was very idealistic, but this idealism perhaps made him somewhat detached from the rest of the world and reality. I think that he views his passion for the visual arts as an extension of this idealism as it was something he did, not because he expected anything great to happen from it or because he thought he could make a living from it, but simply because he thought it was worth doing and it meant something to him. I think that on one level he really misses this time in his life but at the same time recognises that he had to change to suit the environment around him. The idea of counting rings is a metaphor for the way in which you can tell the age of a tree by counting the rings in its trunk but I think why this metaphor is actually more complex than it may appear is because Aesop draws attention to the fact that you have to cut down a tree in order to count its rings. By following this metaphor, we arrive at the idea that in looking back on his life Aesop feels that he has in a sense chopped himself down. What this means exactly isn’t clear, but I’ve taken it to say that the only way Aesop can understand who he has become is by looking back on a life that has regrets. It’s only by recognising who he used to be that Aesop can see how far he’s come and even though he’s grown so much, there are still things that define him deep down that he thought he may have left behind in a past that he misses. While this song may seem somewhat depressing, I believe that it can provide a very positive message when we look at Aesop’s actions. If you have a chance to check out Aesop’s Instagram you’ll find that it is full of art that he has created, some of it is really great and makes me angry how one guy can be so talented. This changes the meaning of the song for me. It isn’t about a man who lost a passion but a man who rediscovered something that he thought was lost and is able to bring back some of the idealism and heart that had defined him when he was younger.
The other song that I’m going to talk about is the third song on the album: Lotta Years. This track follows Rings and offers a real distinction. It works on a much smaller scale and offers more of a narrative while still retaining a strong message and a great level of depth.
“The kid that work down at the local Baskin-Robbins
Got a tattoo of a lipstick print attached above his collar”
Aesop Rock, Lotta Years
The song opens with the above lines and immediately sets a much more literal and grounded feel for this song; this paired with a slower flow and a more deliberate backing track makes it incredibly easy to follow exactly what Aesop is saying. The song therefore lends itself incredibly well to a more reflective sentiment and Aesop does not disappoint. During the first verse he compares his own personality with the “kid that work down at the local Baskin-Robbins”. He does this by comparing their tattoos, the kid’s lipstick print and his own tattoo of bats drawn by his friend Alex. He does so through the following lyrics:
“Look at that neck,
The message is immediate, the guy effs chicks
I spent a lot of years making friends with cool artists
So when they drew me tattoos I could truly feel important
Now some 22 year old inside a cube of brick and mortar
Got me questioning my morals in their corny pecking order”
Aesop Rock, Lotta
The musical, thematic and lyrical construction in this section is just brilliant. It is signposted by a much shorter line that disrupts the flow which up to this point has been incredibly steady and pairs this with a rising synth that becomes part of the mix from there and also introduces a new, unusual percussive idea that really punctuates this line and makes it stand out. Aesop’s thoughtfulness and uncanny ability for analysis then takes over as he deconstructs the differences between their tattoos. He takes the kid’s to simply represent an immediate and obvious interpretation which he explains in a similar manner, that is: “the guy effs chicks”. The whistle in the backing track just adds to this point. On the other hand, Aesop sees his own tattoos as having a deeper meaning. He sees them as being important as they were drawn by a friend who he considers to be great artist and this connection means a lot to him. I think that this idea follows on nicely from the themes he expressed in Rings and show the different ways in which visual art remains an important part of Aesop’s life and that he stills sees its value. Maybe the most interesting about this section is the way in which Aesop brings together these two observations. Rather than reconfirming his own attitudes, this train of thought leads Aesop to compare not only his tattoos but his morals with this 22-year-old “kid”. He overcomes this spiral through the following line:
“I should give a shit less
Cherry – No; Whip – Yes”
Aesop Rock, Lotta Years
The line is intentionally blunt while remaining self-reflective. Aesop’s own introspective attitude causes him to question his own actions as well as those of the people he meets, and he compare their lives. He has respect for the way in which people are able to live in a much more direct manner however, even acknowledging that he has something to learn from this attitude to life and that he could “give a shit less”. He demonstrates this by making the simple decision of having whip but no cherry with his order, bringing the verse back to the grounded setting of the Baskin-Robbins that it began with. It also acts as a brilliant entry into the themes of the song and so leads into the hook which is simply:
“Lotta years,
Uh, lotta years”
Aesop Rock, Lotta Years
This represents what is at the core of the song, Aesop is considering how much things have changed during his life time and what he has to learn from people younger than him. He touches on this during the second verse:
“My mind’s fucking blown
The future is amazing, I feel so fucking old
I bet you clone your pets and ride a hover-board to work
I used a folding map to find the juice place in the first
These kids are running wild, I’m still recovering from church”
Aesop Rock, Lotta Years
This verse shows Aesop’s more comedic side when he plays with typical images of the future while comparing them to how he needs to still use “a folding map” to find his way around. I think the last line of this extract is really interesting as Aesop is considering all the things that young people do while he’s “still recovering from church”. I think this is a interesting phrase as there are religious connotations in other of Aesop’s songs and he seems to consider his own religious upbringing as more repressive than anything else but I think there’s also more to it than that. I think that he’s also saying that he’s spent a lot of time trying to reform his character, if you listen to the rest of the album there’s a lot of mentions of ‘shrinks’, but that he may have finally reached a point where he’s happy with who he is and that he’s ready to embrace the world as the person who he is, even if he has some flaws.
I think that this works nicely to link the two songs together and I think that it gives a small insight into the rest of the album. I think that this provides an interesting outlook from a point of view which isn’t often seen in rap or hip hop. Aesop is approaching an age where he can look back on his life and consider how far he’s come and how he’s changed but also how the world has changed around him. He provides a message which isn’t straight forward which encourages people to reflect on who they are and the things that they think are important and hold on to them. I think he provides a really unique and engaging sound and I can’t recommend these songs and the rest of the album enough. I will definitely still be returning to Aesop Rock when I’m 40.